Working

Lately I've realized I still have a passion for music by writing it, singing, playing, composing, and just living it and seeing I'm not that great of an established guitar player at all I can't just walk right out of college just yet. Lately I've been writing some songs and lyrics to hopefully come out with my own personal EP and gauge reaction to my own music to see if this is something I am truly passionate about and wanting to do.

So I'm going to treat the only viewer of my blog, myself, to some lyrics I've been working on seeing my music is recorded on my iphone and doesn't sound good at all. I plan on this being a 5 track album probably only available on iTunes. The album to me is based on experiences I have felt, or have happened in my life and what I see out in the world. I feel like connecting with the listeners is the best way for the listener to get everything they can out of a song and for me to do that I need to ask myself is this real or is this just a bunch of made up stuff that just rhymes and fits together. The actual music part of the album is so far just electric guitar and it feels empty so until I get a hold of an acoustic guitar or record over Christmas break I won't be releasing anything soon.

No Love

"She knows

he's pretending

He's just

trying to figure himself out

She know's it's over

But she's not falling out

of his no love

It's been a long night

Here at home

Yet she's still left

crying in her room

Cause no one ever

thinks to check their phone

It's just another midnight

No one ever knows what's wrong"

Thursday

"You keep telling me

that baby you're just getting hurt

and I play a long

Just to pretend that it don't hurt

But you know me better

than she ever could

so you call me out

and you stich me up

You hold me just right

telling me it will be alright

she texts me every hour

asking when I'm coming home tonight

but she doesnt know

that I'm done being her man

as you lean over towards me

and kiss me goodnight"

Summer

Great feelings. What do we sync awesome times and feelings with? Lets make a list.

1. Christmas
2. Birthdays
3. Hanging with friends
4. Going to a concert
5. Laying out at night in the warm summer air
6. Getting ice cream at 10pm before playing ultimate frisbee
7. Summer

That is a short list but basically anything other than summer takes up at the MOST 5 numbers. I think we can also relate summer to one important factor. Love. Yes we all know it, love it, hate it, and live it. That's what I think of while thinking of summer. Who am I going to take to that one concert or who am I going to hold in my arms while sitting out in the night watching the stars. The answer is I don't know, but why not sing about it? This isn't exactly how I wanted it too go but it will get better the more I work with it. I have the idea but need to actually implement it. Anyways this little bit will probably get turned into another idea or just fly out the window.

"Did you ever think that
there is no way
out of this simple phase?
Maybe I just need
a little bit more time
to get a feel for this place
Maybe it just needs to feel
like summer all over again
and I can feel like I did back when
When I was with you
Like summer again"

Little diddy

I'm working with some words right now that I posted earlyer. Trying to get a feel for what I'm trying to say and I'm struggling with past future and present tense but that's all small details because I can change that once I have a whole song written out that I'm happy with. The tune is in my head but the guitar is in the shop which will help me focus on the lyrical aspect.

"Did you say you heard me?
Because I was thinking that
You haven't put you heart into it
and that your crazy that you think you love me
when you keep turning your back to me
Did I say you hurt me?
Cause I was thinking that
that the way you treat me
living in my back seat
telling me how to live my life was enough
Oh just forget it

This isn't what I thought it was going to be
I wasn't expecting for it to be this way
It's as if this perfect dream
It wasn't meant to be
It wasnt meant for me

Did I make it clear
when I said you were breaking my heart?
You seemed to take pleasure in changing the scene
I can't remember the last time you meant it
when you said you loved me
Yet clearly you still say
That it's ok
I'm not breaking your heart
Just listen to me
I wish somebody would've told me
That it's not ok
Did you ever see it my way?"

It's in different parts. It's not a flowing motion of words but a bunch of ideas rather thrown onto the same document so I can reflect on different feels until I come up with a good nice lyrical flow. I'm excited about it.

Move, move, move!

I gave my guitar up today for it to be fixed and now I am guitar-less. Let me tell you something, I have so much time on my hands I have no idea what to do with myself. I guess homework will be priority one but the more I sit around the more I feel like I'm being draw into something else. It's hard to put words to the thoughts and feelings that are inside of my head and heart right now but the best way is that I know I am sitting here at this computer typing this post. Yet, even though I know it's perfectly crazy and I'm out of my mind, that I'm being dragged to somewhere else to start what I really want to do. I don't know if it's withdrawl symptoms from not having my guitar but I did a recording of stuff I've been working on, and some John Mayer songs, and with it being at 1 am in the morning it sounded pretty good for not knowing a lot on the guitar.

Solos were being nailed, fills were being filled to the overflow line, and the beat was there. This relates back to my last post about losing your self in the moment. I listened to this recording of just an idea I had and I as much as I hate boasting myself I was actually happy with what I had heard.

I'm glad I recorded it because it gives me hope that I can still be a good guitarist. Recording musician as a job? Far from it. But the heart is there. I wonder if the rest can catch up.

It's a good day

So we all have things that we do that we really enjoy. I'm not talking about eating, or reading, but like playing guitar or video games. I'll use the guitar situation because that's my situation so I can relate to it and describe it easier.

Let us begin.

We all days that we pick that thing up and you say to yourself after 5 minutes into that activity, "I'm not going to bed any time soon." It just feels right, am I right? I picked up my guitar today with this solo stuck in my head I wanted to figure out which proved to be a problem because I was not in the mood. It was a fast guitar lick that if mastered would make me feel good about myself, but not the end of the world. Instead of taking the low road and blowing it off and hit the hay I decided to for-go my interaction of sleeping with my bed and pillow and listened to what I needed, not wanted, but needed to do. So I started playing some slower songs. Not slow slow but that song that you could listen to at any point during your life whether you were hell bent on kicking someone in the head or wanting to just sleep it off. This is when I discovered to be a good day.

I was drawn in. Not to the music, not to the guitar, but to something else. It was my first out of body in body experience. Work with me here. I knew I was playing the guitar, and I knew what I was playing. But my fingers and body got into it a lot more than I thought I would and I even surprised myself but after realizing how the music flew together, unlike my other past experiences with soloing, I couldn't afford to stop. It was crazy. My hands flew like a hobo on crack, and my expression rivaled that of Eric Clapton's and John Mayer's. It was a glorious feeling.

We've all had days like this before right? It's a good day. It's a shame it has to come to an end with my mind spinning with ideas and such, but I want this to be drawn out as long as possible.

Guitar unplugged. Amp turned off. Pick...who knows were I tossed that. G'night!

Title in the process

"Did you say you heard me?
Because I was thinking that
You can't put you heart into it
and that your crazy that you think you love me
when you keep turning your back to me
Did I say you hurt me?
Cause I was thinking that
that drop kick back flip
living in the back seat
telling me how to live my life was enough
Oh just forget it"

Just something I've been working on. Yes there are imperfections to this, as is everything, but with a song so early in the making there is no need to change anything. That's like punishing a new born, there is no point. Keep it until all the pieces fit.

Reminder

Never look at someone that you idolize and say, "I hate them so much! I want what they have." For instance, I hate Martha Stewart because she's an amazing cook and home decorator. I, on the other hand, like to follow the instructions on the box and as long as things are tidy and the colors don't make my retinas bleed then it's a good day. We all say it and I will be the first to announce that I do it about every single day whether it's about cooking, being able to build a house, or doing amazing tricks with a yo-yo without causing bodily harm to your body. But let me propose an idea so preposterous that you might gasp in awe and refuse to read the rest of this entry. If you really want to be able to do what ever it is that person is doing say, "I want that, and I'm going to have that. Let's start now." Some people do this naturally, but for the rest of the human population we go, "Eh, maybe some other time." I heard a song on the radio today that I absolutely fell in love with. I would not be able to tell you the title because I was to busy singing the words I never knew to it, and it showed. I thought to myself, "How awesome. The passion behind the guitar and the nice smooth lyrics is amazing." So instead of saying, "Gosh I wish I could play like that.", I know a lot of quotation right, I went upstairs and picked up my guitar and attempted to figure it out.

Find what it is you want, pursue it, never give up, never look down, push when there is nothing left, don't let pointless things get in the way of what you want, and do it with a smile.

It's easier to say then do. I fight it everyday, but everyday I get closer to obtaining a constant rhythm in my life of what I want to be.