I lie. I lied a lot in this blog. But I didn't lie. Whose to tell me the truth? Even I can't to be honest with you. I filled this blog up with a lot of dreams, hopes, and want to be's but yet I never really achieved what I wanted to with them. What does this mean? Does this mean that I never really cared or had the passion for my musicianship? Does this mean that I was hoping I could be something I'm really not? Does this mean that I'm just too something? There are a lot of possible answers and yet there is only really one.
Life is the most intricate design ever conceived by our all loving Father in heaven. That is the answer. Why? God gives us what we need when we need it the most. Some people take their form of this loving gift in money, food stamps, help from a neighbor, or whatever else they desperately need in that particular moment. From 2007-2010 mine was music. The guitar, lyrics, notes, volume, treble, bass, mid, low, high, power on, and hit record was mine. The blessing of that gift that descended down into my life gave me peace and hope. I'm not saying that this gift is over because this gift is a never ending one which will help me through anything in life.
What I'm trying to get is that God provides in situations where you feel so small and so tired that all you want to do is throw up your arms, update your facebook status as "I give up" and sit by your phone for updates to your twitter with sympathy. This is a natural reaction that everyone has so do not be ashamed. Let this feeling in and acknowledge its presence but only for a little bit. Give yourself time to understand how terrible of a situation you are in and how hope seems so bleak that you are surprised you know what the word hope means. When you get to that point, send those feelings out. Fight them with all that you can and when you start losing it, which will be almost immediately, pray and cry out to God for help! Not with anger or frustration or being upset, but with a calm voice and a whole hearted feeling. That God will come down and put you back where you belong in coach and he'll take over your plane. God will provide in all situations and get you through the clouds to a safe landing back on the ground where you need to be.
He has for me. He will for you. He will always do it for us.
